Drowning Self-Pity

There is no way to talk about your family and finances without sounding pathetic and greedy for sympathy. No one really wants to listen to that babble anyways. So after an awful night of smashed windows and broken phones, I took a bath. I rarely take baths because they take so long. Everything nowadays has to be fast. Information, food, cleaning. I think the most enjoyable part of baths is the quiet. All you have to do is stick your ears under the surface and all the self-pity speak dissapears. All you can hear is the amplified sound of your breathing. Soon, the water started to pulse with my heartbeat. Little things like that make me happy. Went wedding shopping today. It was too cute. I can't wait to go and be mildly jealous of Joe and Rachel. Hooray! Don't know when I will be buying school books..or fixing my glasses. I'm scared to even tell mom that they're broken. Maybe I won't, but they're a pain the way they are.